Alcoholism

I have no job and no real home. I’m co-dependent and my ex-boyfriend was an alcoholic. We’ve been apart for 7 months now.  My ex-boyfriend and I were together for a few years. I moved across the country to be with him and support his life with his child a couple years ago. I found out he had invited another woman into my home and that they had been “dating” for a month, 7 months ago.  I moved back “home” to my family who is now somewhat estranged. I’m too old to have children so any family that I was hoping I would have is pretty much over….. I hate him for that, taking the last fertile years of my life.  Even though, he told me that he wanted kids with me, when I brought up going to the doctor to get help with having a kid, he said it was my problem, not his.  I kept hoping he would change.  I changed my life, everything I did, and it was never enough for him.  I knew if I left, I would have a hard time finding someone else to father my children, ...